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Quick post, but it's interesting how quickly things can change when you decide you don't want to deal with the bullshit anymore. Your own or others'. It's really just...amazing. 

There's times that I wish you could just go back and do it all over again. I tend to lose sight of things that are really important to me sometimes and I have no idea why. Lately I've had this new-found sense of motivation, but then I look at what I use it for and I just...feel like I'm doing it WRONG.


Way too deep for this early in the day.  Here's something superficial -- I'm annoyed and bored, and am looking forward to the weekend. Even though it's Tuesday.

So...yesterday was fun. Met a bunch of new people, they were fun too. Nothing but Mohitos and Rum and Coke the entire night, plus Mellow Mushroom pizza.

I think the superbowl came on at some point too.

And then we watched the new episode of House. It was surprisingly good, though I have a feeling they're going to make House this touchy feely bastard that totally goes against his character and everything I like about him. Writer's strike == subpar writing? Kidding.... But seriously, the superbowl made me incredibly happy too, though I think I would've felt that way with either team. I mean a four time superbowl winner in five years would've had me grinning ear to ear, but a last minute comeback? Voila, another ear to ear grin.

So it was fun. New people, new friends, interesting people, good times. It's been a while since I've done something like that, and I'm glad that it happened. Hopefully it'll turn into a weekly trivia thing or something, that'd be fantastic.

In other news...do you ever feel like you just try and try and try to smooth things over with someone or try to just make things decent with them, and no matter how hard you try, the other person just doesn't? I'm a very optimistic person, and I tend to try to make things go well between friends, regardless of hell or high water. But...I'm beginning to feel jaded, just that slightest bit cynical of people...feeling that least little bit like I shouldn't even try to make the effort, because frankly, I deserve better.

And maybe I do. I guess we'll find out.

Me and Andrew are gonna go cruise for chicks. Yeah. It'll be fun. Wingmen unite? lol

I love you guys so much, you are, quite simply put, the best things in my life right now. Family and friends are pretty much pulling me through everything at the moment, and I can't even tell you how much I appreciate it and what it means to me.

Tonight was...something I needed very much. It feels good to know that things are going well.

In unrelated news...Superbowl plans? Who's got em? Cause I'm seriously considering picture-in-picture with guitar hero while hanging out with friends, lol.

I made a mistake. It was a bad one, and is costing me emotionally at the  moment.

I will not make that mistake again, nor many others like it.  I really loved her...



But it's time to take on a new perspective. I want to finish things, and start new ones. I've wasted so much time....

God help me. And I hope I find some real friends along the way. To those who have stood by me and all my crap, and to those who TRIED to stand by me and failed because I was a miserable friend, thank you. I am trying to figure myself out and rekindle certain friendships and relationships, I hope at least some of them are successful.

I don't think I've ever felt like praying before this, but at the moment, that's exactly what I want to do.

So, I was at IHOP with will, keenan, and (Crap why cant i remember his name...im going to remember it...dammit...no I'm not....) some other dude. So it's 3:00 in the morning and we're all going to be ridiculously late to work the next day, and its just excessive. But we've had a great night, caught up with people and such, it's just been a a blast.

We order, still talking, chatting it up, not quite raucous, but definitely more animated than we should be at three in the morning, considering we're all dead tired and ready to hit our pillows with our faces.

The coffee comes first, the waitress sets the jug down on the table and smiles as she leaves. We all pour and mix to our individual tastes, while Will narrates a story about how some woman collided with his car in broad daylight going on the wrong side of the road because she was going 60 mph in a 35. As he continues, the waitress brings our food, pancakes for all, various other items for some, and leaves after asking if we need anything.

Again, we all start to spread butter, pour syrup, etc, etc...I follow suit, pick up a jug, decant over my pancakes while listening to Will

Who slowly trails off...I glance at Keenan, who is snapping a picture of me with her cell phone while Will is trying not to choke while laughing. I look down at the jug of coffee I'm slowly pouring into my pancakes as I burst out laughing.

I made coffeecake. It tastes good. I'm going to do it again. After I post pictures of course.

His name was Kenneth.

Michael Jackson just skated. He was just acquitted on all 10 of the charges he was brought to trial for, three of which had lesser charges attached to them. I have to ask how in the hell this is possible.

I'm thoroughly disgusted.

I dont know why, and this is pretty stupidly funny, but for some reason...well, here it is.

BARBIE IS EVIL

How in the hell is "My keyboard is sticky" a sexual comment?

BTW. My keyboard really is sticky. Time to wash it.

I plan on experiencing technical difficulties. A lot.

Your Brain is 33.33% Female, 66.67% Male

You have a total boy brain Logical and detailed, you tend to look at the facts And while your emotions do sway you sometimes... You never like to get feelings too involved